In the last month and a half, I have faced numerous health difficulties, including, but not limited to, countless significant pulled muscles in both legs, a stubborn middle ear infection, a sinus infection, tinnitus, muscle tingling, and steroid-induced complications—including an increased heart rate, and increased anxiety. All these things have staggered on top of one another over the last six weeks while I continued to attempt to solve “why could this be? And how do I solve problem X.” Although some of these problems have gone away, others still have persisted, leading to what sometimes feels like a never-ending cycle of health problems.
I am by nature a scheduler, a planner, one who likes to balance what I am trying to accomplish with the reality of the day. In my mind, most days are considered a success if I can complete ideally all, if not most, of what is listed on my tasks for the day.
In this sense, these health issues have pushed me to my limit. In my desire to control, I try to find every possible solution to such concerns, often leading me to worry about the worst-case scenario of each situation.
Many people view the significant list of agenda items I try to accomplish and say I am succeeding significantly. However, as much as I generally succeed, there are usually 40-50% (at minimum) of additional items on my unattainable list that I cannot complete.
I have learned the differences between transactional and transformational leadership during my doctorate studies. According to The Florida Institute of Technology, transactional leadership is defined as a leadership style “based on processes and control and requires a strict management structure.” Transformational leadership is the antithetical leadership style driven by “inspiring others to follow, and it requires a high degree of coordination, communication, and cooperation.”
One could use these principles outside of leadership circles to define how we think and how we process our lives as human beings.
In other words, as a general rule, living transactionally is simply looking for as much control as possible by living in a specific set of circumstances. However, living transformationally, although requiring more effort, allows other people to come aside you in general relationships, as well as in mentee and mentor roles, to help continue building successful living patterns.
From a spiritual perspective, I have often been reminded that submitting my needs, desires, and cares to the Lord is necessary for personal peace. Additionally, the need to obey the Word never dwindles whether we are in times of transactional or transformational tendencies.
My campus pastor, Brad Wetherell, gave an excellent sermon on Sunday about the necessity of the authenticity of our faith. In the sermon, there was a key line Pastor Brad said: “Our faith is not supposed to be obedience to earn our access into the kingdom but would rather demonstrate the authenticity of our devotion.”
Pastor Brad concluded the sermon by citing Matthew 5:3: “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven” (ESV).
These points lead me to believe God calls us to be transformational in our relationships and leadership opportunities. We should humble ourselves to the Father and release our uncontrollable concerns to Him. As my mentor says, “Control is an illusion.”
And to clarify, this is not easy to do. I would still consider myself someone who is transactional with transformational tendencies. My goal in the coming years, with God’s help, is to continue to incrementally change and become more transformational.
I do want to mention that there are numerous situations where living transactionally needs to occur. We need to eat, sleep, work, run errands, clean the house, etc. However, we should seek out transformational mindsets amid transactional experiences. You may want to eat lunch with someone at work who could use a friend, or you could use the grocery checkout line to strike up a quick conversation. We only have a limited time on earth until God calls us home.
Speaking of which, one of my subconscious worries during this problematic health season was trying to decipher whether God has a long-term plan for me in this life. Upon reflection, I humbly believe that God has some big plans for my life yet (as I believe the same for you, too!). We should not be entitled to that notion, as we could be with him as soon as we read this article; however, trusting in God authentically will allow us to be transformational in the time he has for us on earth.
UPDATE (6/24): I came across a podcast episode from one of my favorite podcast entities, “The Holy Post,” where Christian journalist/podcaster/pastor Skye Jethani was talking with Wheaton bible scholar John Walton.
Jethani noted that we are not made to simply “serve” God (or, that Good NEEDS something from us, and our purpose is to simply do that task), but rather, more importantly, what Genesis 1 reveals is the enormous dignity of every person as an image bearer of God as a representative of His in this creation.
THAT is our purpose! We are created to be a witness to others as image bearers rather than living in consternation about how we can be God’s “tool.”
Walton added that this idea is not simply transactional, but rather a theme to use in our spiritual walks.
Society has taught us how to be effective “tools” of something, and that mentality has even spilled into our own theology, which Jethani mentions actually lessens our value and worth. What if we were to live as if we knew we were Godly creations and manifested that into our relationships, as opposed to living as a “tool,” counting down the days till eternity? The image-bearing transformational mindset makes us appreciate more of the present as we wait for the future.
Minds of Meaning 